That disappointing moment when I don't get the job.
A couple of weeks ago, I applied for a position as an administrative assistant with a company and before the day was out I was scheduled for an interview. It happened so fast, especially after months and months of NOTHING, I was..admittedly excited! Surely this is God right?
The interview process went well, I felt like I presented myself as a good candidate for the job. There were a couple aspects of the job that I had to come to grips with in my mind, the nine hour days (versus my 5 hour ones. I'm spoiled I know), the fact that I'd have to give up puppy raising (*gulp*), could I actually do the job? (YES!) but once I'd finally come to a bit of peace about them, I was ready to accept the job should they offer it to me.
Far be it that I should turn down a $10,000 pay raise.
Fast forward one week and four days.
I finally get a phone call from an unknown number, right as I walk into a notoriously dead zone at my job.
I know as soon as I can hear her voice on the other end, even SHE sounded depressed.
To be honest, before the phone call I'd come to grips with whatever, if I stay or if I went. But I was really hoping it would be the latter; so now that I have my answer, I guess the best way to describe "now" is numbness.
And a bit of anxiousness regarding the future.
I needed that money.
I've totaled my current debt up too almost $5,000, which doesn't "look" like a lot, unless you know my current salary.
Perhaps I just need to learn to live more frugally. And not do stuff like buy tires for my car, or go to Six Flags for friends birthdays. OR something.
I don't even know.
Now that I've gotten my "pity-patty-party" out of the way. I've got to move on.
Obviously this wasn't the door I was meant to go through, so now I'm back to trusting that God has something better out there for me. Which is really hard to see right now. REALLY HARD.
Also? I hate job hunting.
Back to the drawing board!
A couple of weeks ago, I applied for a position as an administrative assistant with a company and before the day was out I was scheduled for an interview. It happened so fast, especially after months and months of NOTHING, I was..admittedly excited! Surely this is God right?
The interview process went well, I felt like I presented myself as a good candidate for the job. There were a couple aspects of the job that I had to come to grips with in my mind, the nine hour days (versus my 5 hour ones. I'm spoiled I know), the fact that I'd have to give up puppy raising (*gulp*), could I actually do the job? (YES!) but once I'd finally come to a bit of peace about them, I was ready to accept the job should they offer it to me.
Far be it that I should turn down a $10,000 pay raise.
Fast forward one week and four days.
I finally get a phone call from an unknown number, right as I walk into a notoriously dead zone at my job.
I know as soon as I can hear her voice on the other end, even SHE sounded depressed.
To be honest, before the phone call I'd come to grips with whatever, if I stay or if I went. But I was really hoping it would be the latter; so now that I have my answer, I guess the best way to describe "now" is numbness.
And a bit of anxiousness regarding the future.
I needed that money.
I've totaled my current debt up too almost $5,000, which doesn't "look" like a lot, unless you know my current salary.
Perhaps I just need to learn to live more frugally. And not do stuff like buy tires for my car, or go to Six Flags for friends birthdays. OR something.
I don't even know.
Now that I've gotten my "pity-patty-party" out of the way. I've got to move on.
Obviously this wasn't the door I was meant to go through, so now I'm back to trusting that God has something better out there for me. Which is really hard to see right now. REALLY HARD.
Also? I hate job hunting.
Back to the drawing board!
3 comments:
I hate job hunting too. I am so sorry you didn't get the job but I am praying that our Lord Jesus is going to do something even better for you. Thanks for visitng my blog :)
Love,
Kim
OHHHH! You are Texas' Mommy!!! We thought we didn't know you. But we do! BOL! Thanks for visiting our blog anyway!!
Licks,
Ruthie
Hi,
I've dealt with numerous disappointments with job searches and with each one it has never been easy to accept "NO" for an answer but from my experience I've found that the right job comes along when I least expect it. So keep on searching b/c you will find the job. Just don't give up!
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